Heading for a New World
...roaching to replace my childhood. My Mom used to say that there are lots of traps and obstacles in my life’s path. It depends how much I pay attention to avoid and jump over it. I’m so confused and afraid that some day, I might fall in the trap and end up my life right there so unreasonably. I seriously do not know what practicalities of life are. This is like the first day when I learn how to walk, keep myself balanced, avoid little rock and I will get better and better every day. Sometimes I wonder how my mother could run her business, build our own house, take care my sisters and me just in one hand since my father passed away when I was just 10 years old. Can I handle everything like my Mom had done for us? Build a big house, take care of her when retired time comes. I think it is not easy for me at all especially this time, I am just placing my first step in a strange world with plenty new things waiting for me to find out, but I will try. I have a lot of hopes and dreams in my childhood. Most of them came true because they were not really impossible. I wish that some day I could sit on an airplane and let it fly me to wherever it wants. I hoped that my family could be better, had enough food for everyone and my Mom could quit her third job, spend more time with us. When my Dad passed away, I hoped everyday that he could come back home again, teach me how to do homework, play with me. But this time it never came true. I know that is just a thought of a child, but it’s still remaining in my head. I am so worried about my plan for my future. Being a ...