Poor Naive Girl
...over to, now that dude is funny. He loves to drink and smoke. Well me, Logan and his cousin went to some place. I dont know where cuz i stayed in the car with his cousin. But on the way back to his house he was holding my hand and stuff as he was driving. Then when we got back and were on the street he went behind me and put his arms around me and asked if i was ok, i guess he asked since i was all quiet and stuff. But it was such a nice moment. So we went in the house and were in his room and we were just being affectionate and stuff, but i still didnt kiss him. Well his friends came over and they went to go watcha movie. I stayed in his room cuz i didn't want to watch the movie. But a few minutes later i ended up going down and watching. Well then his friends left and it was just me and him and we were on the couches and he was like "r u gonna sleep over?" since it was like 12 midnight. I was like "yea". So he started trying to kiss me and stuff and i was like "no". Then he fixed the bed couch and we were laying on there and well i ended up kissing him and we were just having a grand time. haha. Well he dropped me of in the morning but we got lost on the way, cuz i didnt know how to get home. I could tell he got mad. Well we said our good byes and stuff. Well I didnt talk to him after that till like wednesday. And thats only because we saw each other in the hall. He was like why havent u called me and i was like why havent u called me? He was like i have been busy but i was gonna call u up soon. Well thats how that ended. So i saw him on that friday and i didnt have nothing to do since antonia had something to go to. So he was like what r u gonna do today? and i was like i dont know yet. So he was like u wanna kick it? i was like sure. So i waited for him and we went to his house and ended up doing what we did last week. I slept over again too. Well this is were the thing gets all weird. So its Monday and im with Rinatta. We just came out of Mcd's and we were walking back to skool since she had class. So i got a call from him. I was all happy and shit. We talked a bit and then hes like "i dont know how to say this but i think we should just be friends, ur kool and all but i like u as a friend" I was like "um..ok..." Then hes like "i dont want a relationship right now and blah blah" I was just like "um..ok.." I was just in shock. I really didnt expect to hear him say that. Like i never thought we were in a relationship or anything but i was shocked that he acted like he didnt even want to mess anymore. I was really pissed. So that was the end of that for me. I was like well whatever. So i didnt talk to him for a week or more. I'd see him but i would say anything. I just acted like whatever. And i knew his birthday was on friday so i was like i'll just tell him happy birthday if i see him cuz i also dont want him to think he affected my life. Well Friday came and i did see him in the hall and I told him happy birthday and he was all shocked i remembered and he was saying how he feels old and blah blah. The he was like what r u doing tonight? and i was like "well my mom is leaving today so i have to go to the airport" Then he was like well u should call me later tonight to see whats up" I was like "yea i will" Well I went to the airport and didnt come home till 12 midnight. So i was just watching t.v. and being all happy since my mom was gone. And guess what happens! He calls me!! Hes like so whats up? and he was like what did u do? and i was like oh i just came home cuz i was at the airport. And he was like "oh" and then he was like "man the party was fun and stuff and blah blah" Then he was like "I like being with u, those days we were together were fun and ur a good kisser and blah" I was like "what??" Then he was like "i like being with u" then he said stuff like we should kickit again "alone", actually he wanted to come over that night. I was like "but u told me u just wanted to be friends and nothing more" Then he was like "well i dont want a relationship cuz i dont want u to get hurt and i dont want to get hurt, ive had many bad relatoships and i dont want that" I was like "well dont worry cuz i dont want a relationship" But i ended up telling him he couldnt come over cuz people were here and he was just like "oh". Like i wanted him to come but i was scare they would say something since they told my mom about Jim. But now i regret it and wished i would have told him to come. Oh and he asked me this question i till this day dont know what he ment by it, he asked me if i'd be his girl. I was like what! Like i dont get it, cuz then he also said friends with benifits.So im really confused about that one. I of course said sure, not yes but sure. Cuz i really dont know what he ment. He told me to call him in the weekend so we could hang out or whatever. Well i called on Saturday since i was gonna go to marios and we were gonna have a day of fun since we both were parentless. I called Logan to see if he wanted to do stuff but never really asked him cuz he was gonna watch this boxing match thing. I told him i was gonna kick it with a friend. So our conversation ended with him saying "i'll call u back" Well I ended up not going to marios cuz buses didnt pass and i sure as hell wasnt gonna go walk to el camino in the dark alone and without knowing how to get there. Mario was mad but i didnt care cuz shoot i got 10 days to do what i want. Well he didnt call, typical. I saw him on monday in the hall, Rinatta was there too. But yea he acted like nothing and was like "so what r u guys up to?" and Rinatta was like i got a class still and he was like oh really then he asked if i did too. and i was like no im done for the day. Then i guess he thought i wanted to be with him cuz he was like "well i got to go see my boy then go to work" I was like "ok". So we went on our way. I was a bit pissed cuz i sure as hell wasnt thinking of...