The Matter Of Distance
...e like the characters in the fairytale, happily ever after. After a year of the relationship, I dreaded that our relationship will come to an end. Our relationship started to change during last year’s Christmas vacation when I went back to Taiwan. The first few days of being separated were fine. We contacted each other by e-mail and phone. But after a while, the time we contacted each other by phone became less and less. The e-mails he sent me were only a few words long, such as “that’s cool,” ”glad you had fun,” “sounds fun” etc. He did not seem to be interested in my vacation in Taiwan anymore. I started wondering if there was anything wrong. I just could not wait to get back to the United States because I wanted to know what happened in our relationship. Finally, I got back to America. And the first thing I did was e-mail him to let him know that I was back in America, he replied me right away. He said, “That is cool you are back, but don’t come to visit me at the dorm.” That was the only thing he replied on the e-mail. My heart was totally broken at that moment; I was so disappointed that he did not even want to see me again. We finally arranged to meet up on a Sunday. We were having fun in the beginning of the day. Until it was the time for me to go home, he told me that he liked another girl. I was shocked and speechless, but I was not mad at all. I asked him what her name was, what she looked like, and how could he do that to me. He told me her name was Coco, she was an Asian, and she was small. He liked her because he was lonely when I went back to Taiwan. However, Coco was there for him. He told me he really liked that girl. I asked him if he wanted to end our relationship so he could be with Coco, but he said no. He said he loved me but he liked Coco too. There was a difference between love and like, so he didn’t want to end up with me but he wanted to see if he could get alone with Coco. He wanted to be in a relationship with both of us. That was the worst time in my life. I was really confused at that moment because I really loved him, so I did not want to just end up with him like that. Because if I lose him, I would not only loose a boyfriend but a best friend as well, and I would also be alone again. I was afraid. However, I was also considering if he was worthy to wasting my time and my youth on him. We stayed in this triangle relationship for a while. I was afraid that this kind of situation was going on and on continuously. I was scared that we would start to argue and then we might broke up. Being in that relationship was not just like high school love; holding hands, kissing, or gossip around. Being together with him made me feel like he was the one I could rely on. Because of him, I felt like he was a column that would always be there holding the sky for me when it falls. So being separated from him wa...