Lust
... they screech off and call you a bitch.”’1 She seems to be very upset by this, being called a bitch and more upset at the thought of boys thinking she is a bitch. Also the main character that if you flirt with a boy, which she enjoys, you need to be prepared to have sex with them: “I thought the worst thing anyone could call you was a cock-teaser.”1 From these events in the story the reader sees how she wants boys to be impressed by her and like her. This causes her to do sexual things that she may not otherwise do. The author creates the main character to see herself as a body more than a person with feelings and a soul. She let’s boys use her body without ever reveling her real self to anyone. “In one event the main character describes how a boy walks over to the door to close it and comes back to her ‘ a body waiting on the floor”’1 This again sowing how she sees herself as an object to be used by boys for sex and nothing else. “The main character also talks about a time she is sleeping with a particular boy and he rubs his hands over her whole body, looking ‘ through my forehead, or kneeling up looking through my throat.”’1 The boy is very obsessed with the body, but he looks through her forehead and through, as if she has no mind or soul just the body for him to use. While the main character is having these other feelings she is also feeling guilty. The author shows how she has this feeling buried inside her in the beginning through subtle hints. Early in the story she explains that she did things well such as math and spots but forgetting about that when she gets with a boy she only wants to have sex. “She describes feeling ‘like sinking into a muck.”’1 Her guilt is getting to her she sees that she is abusing herself. Near the end of the story her ...