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... Enjoying the married life and the world around them, they decided it was time to start their own family and I was brought into this world in the summer of 1985. ... She took pictures of everything I did, from eating, to sleeping, to crying…you name it. ... Growing up, Kaci and I had any material thing we could dream of and at the same time, had the love and support from our parents that so many kids are left without. ... I remember one day out of the blue my mom came into the living room and asked me and Kaci if we could go play in our rooms for a little bit while she talked to dad. I’d never seen the look on her face that I saw that day. ... She looked so sick and so sad, but of course, Kaci and I obliged and went on to our rooms. ... So I decided to venture out and see what was going on. I saw my mom and dad sitting beside each other on the couch crying uncontrollably. Immediately, I thought someone must have passed away and as I would discover later, a piece of all of us would die that day.
Yes, I am talking about the big D…. ... I was tangled in a web of hurt, betrayal, and confusion. ... I felt betrayed and confused because my mom was supposed to love me, Kaci, and my dad forever, and then she just stopped. Being a little girl, not knowing much about life yet, I just knew that if she could stop loving him, she could stop loving me too. Up until then, I had been so happy and so blessed. I began to fill up with anger and started questioning God, how could this perfect woman, my mom, hurt me and my family this way? ... These were questions I pondered quite regularly. ... It didn’t help very much, or so I thought. I’d go into this little room that reminded me of a jail cell. ... I drew very colorful pictures of my big house with a bright sun with birds and a clear blue sky. He just could not figure out why my pictures were so colorful when I was so sad and filled with anger and resentment. I didn’t understand then either, but now I do.
Approximate Word count = 1946
Approximate Pages = 7.8
(250 words per page double spaced)
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