Love and Hate
Usually when one thinks of love, he does not associate the word hate with it. When one thinks of love, he thinks about noble sacrifices and intimacy. ... But let me tell you this, love is the first step towards hatred. ... “Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than a stalled ox and hatred therewith” (Proverbs 15:17). Hatred does not exist without love. According to La Rochefoucauld: “love by its usual effects, resembles hatred more than friendship”, if told this a few months ago, I would have laughed. However circumstances had changed and I find myself a victim of this love/hate relationship. ... Combined with my personal experiences, I finally realized the relationship between love and hate, that one is not possible without the other. Love began secretly for me. I really did not know that I had fallen in love with the girl until one day I told myself, “by God, Steve you are in love with this girl. ... I too wanted someone to love, and someone to love me back. ... Like the monster in Frankenstein, I wanted to inspire love but alas also like the monster in Frankenstein I could not, but instead caused fear. ... Perhaps love does not exist. Maybe humans are the only mammal dumb enough to invent something as insipid as love. ... Do not consider my love as a pure and unconditional love. My love was not something you would read about in fairy tales. ... Like Grendel my love for this girl was filled with lust. ... If I had known all of this at the time, perhaps I would have seen this love in a more realistic point of view. ... I saw this love as heavenly and surreal. ... Like the monster and Grendel I seek “the love of another” (Frankenstein 150) and companionship. If “There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved” (George Sand) and if I could not have that one happiness then destruction shall become my creed.