Fully Alive
...ood school. I am fully alive if I accept myself. I believe I am in the process of fully accepting myself. I have yet to reckon why God has made me this tall, or of this race and body type, of this degree of physical attractiveness or of this level of intelligence. It is actually the external of physical aspect of myself that I have not completely accepted; the internal or emotional and spiritual side I have long learned to accept, in fact I love it! Call me narcissistic but I learned how to love my inner self by highlighting my good traits and taking time to appreciate them. I thank God for my ability to cope with problems, or my dexterity in handling people, especially those older than me. The “bad” or “ugly” side of my internal self, I have also learned to love or nurture. If not for these, I would be a perfect person, and yet a rather flat character at that. I have learned to daily cope with these imperfections and seek to improve them in my everyday walk with myself. To be fully alive, I must be myself. I think that I am not perfectly myself all of the time, but I believe that I am close to being fully myself. Others might use lying about facts about themselves or at least stretching the truth as a defense mechanism to mask their insecurities. I, however, am thankful that I am able to use my sense of humor to laugh out the things I lack as a person or my insecurities. Using humor softens the blow, and bringing my insecurities out in the open keeps me humble and down to earth, I believe. I am most myself with people whom I am close to and whom I trust. The more I trust the person, the more “me” I become. I have yet to forget myself in loving. I tend to be selfish and self-centered at times, and that I have learned from people around me tim...