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... up to. Then Holden suddenly is faced with the realization that he has to grow up, and learn to live without Allie. Every time he crosses a street, he feels like he will disappear, so each time he reaches a curb, he calls to Allie, pleading with his dead brother to let him make it to the other side. “Allie, don’t let me disappear. Allie, don’t let me disappear. Allie don’t let me disappear. Please, Allie” (Page 198) He talks aloud to Allie to help him get through the suffering. Holden also continues to see Allie as one of the few things he likes about life, yet another devil that Holden avoids is the process of having to grow up. Throughout the book, he seems hesitant to develop any real ambitions or goals. He is a long-lasting failure at school. He refuses to associate himself with mature ways of living, and so he isolates himself from anyone his own age. This is all directly connected to Holden’s sense of right and wrong and his personality conflicts with the social and moral values of his society. Holden does not want to join a world of phonies, a world lacking in carelessness and irresponsibility. He won't, whether consciously or not, accept the fact that he has no choice. A final conflict in Holden’s life is his own self-destructiveness. Holden might not value his life enough to avoid throwing it away. One of the most significant references to suicide is when he walks around as though he has been shot, and afterward, in Central Park, he convinces himself that he has developed a lung disease and will die very soon. He imagines his funeral, and the reaction of his parents and Phoebe. Holden’s conflicts are mainly internal, they are more like he is at war with himself, but his reactions are quite visible. Most of his trouble with the world is about himself and he seem...